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My life in limbo...

Sunday, December 7, 2014

 A few weeks ago, I shared on my Dear Melanoma Facebook page that I had made an appointment to go and see one of the psychologists at the Cancer Council office in Brisbane. I shared this piece of very personal information because I wanted other people to know that I am not this crazy strong young woman that you might think I am from reading my blog or interacting with me online. And, although my treatment is going well, I still struggle with living every day knowing that my time is short. I needed to see a psychologist to have a good cry to and work out how I am going to navigate life with a terminal diagnosis.
When asked by the psychologist at my first session what I wanted help with, I told her that I was struggling with balancing living each day like its my last and living a life where I look forward and plan for the future… but a short future. I needed to know how to navigate a life in limbo.

This may be a difficult dilemma to comprehend, but it is a dilemma shared by many, especially young people, who have a terminal illness.
My life is in limbo.
In January, I was planning my death. My treatment was not working and we did not know if I would gain access to a clinical trial, or even respond to the treatment. I had met with a palliative care team. We discussed how I wanted to die. We spoke about how I would prioritise saying my goodbyes – did I want to say goodbye to everyone or spend my weeks with my family and closest friends. We went on a family holiday to Hamilton Island, thinking it would be our last chance.
And by far the most difficult part was when I started to plan what I would leave for my husband, parents, sisters, family and friends.
I started collecting my favourite Twigseed cards and hiding them away. These would be my gift to Serge. Letters to open on important anniversaries, letters planned for his next ‘Great Love’, letters for when he has children. My wedding and engagement bands would go to my sisters and mum. I planned to start collecting my favourite children’s books to give to my nieces and nephews, books that would teach them all the things that I would have hoped to teach them myself.
The list goes on. I needed to be ready. I had planned my goodbyes. I had planned my death.
Some of the many Twigseed cards I have
put aside for Serge.
Serge stopped working so that we could spend as much time together as possible. We went on romantic weekends away. We would go out and enjoy meals together. We would live each day as it was the last.
But things changed. I started responding to treatment. This was absolutely fantastic news! I wasn’t given a cure, but I was given much needed time with my new husband, family and friends.
Almost 10 months on, I am still here and I am still responding to treatment. There is no sign that things are going to deteriorate any time soon.
This is where the life in limbo begins to take its toll. I had planned my life thinking that I only had months to live. What happens when you find out you may have a few years in you? Do I go back to my pre-cancer plans or do I continue living in the moment?
Serge and I enjoy every moment we
have together
I can tell you now, although Serge and I get to do lots of fun stuff together, living in the moment isn’t as good as it sounds! Some of you may have read my blog about my dreaded bucket list. Like I said in that blog post, every time I would ‘live in the moment’ and do something fun, it was a constant reminder that I was doing this because I am dying. It gets tiring!
But, on the other hand, the alternative that I imagined would be that I would just go back to how life was pre-cancer. I would go back to university and study or I would work. And then my mind would tick over and remind me that being stressed at university or doing a job ‘just because’ is no way to spend your last years.
So, welcome to my life in limbo!
I am embarrassed to say, but sometimes I think about how it was easier knowing a time frame. I felt I could plan for that time. People ask if I am glad that I asked my doctor for my prognosis, and I have no hesitation in answering. I do not regret finding out that, if this next treatment option didn’t work, I would only have months.
How do you navigate life with a terminal diagnosis? How do you plan for the future, a future that is so unsure? How do you balance having fun, with being real? What does living in limbo mean for me?
The perfect distraction to my life in
limbo, Ralph the cavoodle. 
I do not have the answers to these questions, nor does my psychologist, but I can hope to somehow manage the emotions that come with living in limbo.
Ralph, our new puppy, was an addition to our little family in hope that he could bring a purpose to my days. Someone that I could take care of. Someone that does not see me as Emma with cancer, but just Emma. We have only had Ralph a few months, but he is everything I hoped him to be.
My blog, Dear Melanoma, as well as my work raising awareness and funds for melanoma has kept me busy. I love writing my blog and engaging with complete strangers on Facebook. Planning events and working with Melanoma Institute Australia keeps my braining ticking and utilising skills from my previous study.
With these things, I do feel like I have purpose and something to add to the world. They are things that I can do now and aren’t dependent on planning far in the future. Serge and I continue to have our days where we do live in the moment. We travel when we can, we go on dates together, and we just enjoy life in general. If there is something we want to do we don’t dwell on it, we just do it.
I am managing living in limbo the best I can, I don’t try and solve this dilemma, but I try my hardest to work with it.
To all of those people who are living a life in limbo, I hope this can bring you some ease. You are not alone on this journey. You have been faced with some thing that not many people can truly comprehend.






41 comments :

  1. Such a fabulous post!

    I was 25 when my mum died and I promised myself I would "live in the moment" from then on - and it was exhausting!! I don't think humans are made to "live in the moment" for long - or at least I wasn't. I don't take life for granted and I appreciate the chance to grow older but I honestly believe that the mundane moments are good and just as worthy as the "bucket" list moments

    I do not envy you trying to navigate your limbo - good luck!

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    1. I am basically writing you back to give you all of my thanks. Ever since I finished working on the first kit (Love Me Again), my results have been excellent. All I can say is YES, YES YES!! You have been a great help to me and very patient as well. That is so important. When people start working on things that are new to them, there is so much that they don't know. Especially since working on such kits you are calling on spirits for help and you don't want to make any mistakes because you're afraid that anything could go wrong if the work is not done right (such as myself) and I know that I have questioned you a lot. I can admit that I was having some doubts at first and that I was just hoping that this relationship could be helped due to all of the negativity in the relationship. Now I know that there was help and hope for us once again. You have been the best as far as love spell is concern and responding to questions in a timely manner. And I can also tell that you as the support staff are very bright and well educated people. I just wanted to leave you with this note. But mainly you. Even though I know that there are other spell caster, you have been the one that i have really seen a good result from the casting of the spell....thanks once again {Dr Royal}( Royallovespell@gmail.com )(Royallovespell@yahoo.com)or his website (http://Royallovespell.webs.com) or call him on +2349037171626,....

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    2. My name is Mrs betty moyes,I live in united state,and I’m happily married with my lovely husband and three children. I had a very big problem with my husband few months ago,to the extent that she even packed her things away from me and my kids for almost 5 months,and i tried all my possible best and effort to bring he back,but all to no avail.I discussed it with a very good friend of mine,and he gave me an advice concerning a spell caster,and i quote.“There’s someone who can handle your situation,he’s always ready and able to do anything related to spell casting,i will like you to contact him with his email,which is as follows.”Dr Royallovespell”. I never believed in spell casting,but he convinced me and i had no choice than to follow his advice,because i never dream t of loosing my lovely husband.And that’s how i contacted him with his email address,and i discussed with him and so surprisingly,he told me that I’ll get my husband back a day after.so i never believed,until when i got home,the next day,my husband called me to inform me that he was coming back…..So amazing!! That’s how i got my husband back through spell casting and our relationship was now stronger than how it was before.One of the price i was asked to pay was to tell it to people around me that problems like this,can always be solved by “Dr Royallovespell ”. So! my advice for you out there is to visit this same website (http://Royallovespell.webs.com),and tell him your problems too,if you are in any condition related to love issue or getting your ex back,to have a happy family.THANKS... Email him on( Royallovespell@gmail.com )(Royallovespell@yahoo.com) AS HIS POWERS ARE VERY EFFECTIVE AND HAS NO SIDE EFFECT INSTEAD IT HAVE A VERY GOOD RESULT AFTER CASTING THE SPELL.
      or call him on +2349037171626,.

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  2. Hi Emma,
    This is exactly what I struggled with for a long time following my diagnosis two years ago with lung cancer (at 31, as a never smoker). While I am currently in remission I still find myself wondering if work/study etc is what I want to do with my (potentially limited) time, which is a concept that never occurs to us before we are told our time may be short. The best way I get through it is to remind myself that the 'time unlimited' frame of mind I had before was a complete illusion as none of us know how long we have left. I tend to notice the deaths of perfectly healthy young people in the time since I have been diagnosed as a stark reminder of this. My best coping mechanism is to live in the day I'm in, and do what makes me happy, whether that's study, work or just enjoying my little boy. I wish you all the very best, and many, many more months of

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  3. Living your life!! (Last message got cut off ;-)

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  4. Dear Emma, I am so happy I found your blog. Reading about you makes me see my feelings, and realize I am not alone. My story is quite similar than yours. I am also having a blog (in a different language�� in a different continent). I would really love to ask about your treatment in details, it may help me as I am now searching hard to find someting that works for me. I am 31, diagnosed with melanoma in 2010. I had good periods and hard ones, having tried lots of drugs and at the moment lost what the next one will be.. I am stage 4. Best wishes, Sunny

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  5. You are such an inspiration Em! xx

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  6. I came to this site just to testify to the world one powerful man that brought my lover back to me within the period of 48 hours, Whose name and contact information are Dr.EZIZA and you can contact him at ezizaspellhome@gmail.com or call +2347068534025. At first i never believe that he will ever be able to bring back my lover to me but today through the help of Dr.EZIZA myself and my lover are back together and happy much more than ever.

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  7. I don’t think there’s anything wrong about planning for the arrangement. Needless to say, everything would be organized and go on how you want it to be. Nothing in this world is permanent. Therefore, one is better be prepared for any shortcomings they might encounter. But I do hope they won't need those arrangements for years to come. Stay strong!

    Damon Marsh @ Inland Memorial

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  8. I just want to share my experience
    and testimony here... I was married for 3years to my husband and all of a
    sudden, another woman came into the picture... He started hailing me and he was
    abusive. But I still loved him with all my heart and wanted him at all
    cost…then he filed for divorce. My whole life was turning apart and I didn’t
    know what to do .he moved out of the house and abandoned the kids... so someone
    told me about trying spiritual means to get my husband back and introduced me
    to a spell caster called Chief Priest Amros…so I decided to try it reluctantly. Although I didn’t believe in all those things… then when he did the special prayers and spell, after 2days, my husband came back and was pleading. He had realized his mistakes. I just couldn’t believe it... Anyways we are back together now and we are happy. In case anyone needs this man, his email address holytempleofsolution@hotmail.com His spells is for a better life. Again his
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  9. I want to use this medium to say a very big thanks to
    dr ebosele for restoring my relationship back. I lost
    my husband to another lady who happens to be his superior
    at the office. my husband was going out with her after two
    years of our marriage, when found out that my husband was
    having an affair with another woman, i confronted him
    and all he did was to send me packing. When i discussed
    the issue with my friend jenny, she told me not worry
    that maybe my husband was under a spell and she suggested
    that we consult a spell caster named dr ebosele. my friend
    told me she came in contact with his email on the
    web when she was searching for answers to a similar problem.
    we contacted him for help and behold he gave me the answers
    to my problems. I was surprise the day my husband and his friends
    came to my house asking me to come back to the house,at first
    i taught i was dreaming but behold it was real and now we are
    happy together again. THANK YOU DR EBOSELE i will forever be grateful.

    YOU CAN CONTACT HIM FOR HELP VIA DREBOSELETEMPLEOFGRACE@HOTMAIL.COM
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  10. my name is violet my husband is jasper i have a word to all my viewers in the world After being in relationship with jasper for seven years,he broke up with me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem to someone online and she suggested that I should rather contact a spell caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the type that never believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I mailed the spell caster, and he told me there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days, that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him, that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is different from all the fake ones out there. Anybody could need the help of the spell caster, his email:drakugbespellhome@gmail.com you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or anything. CAN NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT YOU SIR HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS:drakugbespellhome@gmail.com CONTACT HIM NOW FOR SOLUTION TO ALL YOUR PROBLEM or call via +2347061824880


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  11. HELLO EVERYBODY AM MARIA LIZZY FROM IRELAND I AM FULL OF JOY FOR WHAT DR DR ALEXISDID FOR ME, I NEVER TAUGHT SPELL CASTING WAS REAL BECAUSE I HAVE CONTACTED ALOT OF SPELL CASTERS AND THEY ALL COLLECTED MY MONEY WITHOUT GIVING ME RESULT, SOMEBODY TOLD ME OF DR ALEXIS SO I GAVE IT A TRY, BEHOLD! I WAS SUPRISED OF EVERYTHING MY HUSBAND LEFT ME FOR 11YRS BUT DR ALEXIS TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY THAT HE WILL RETURN HIM BACK TO ME . TODAY AM THE MOST HAPPIEST WOMAN IN THE WORLD BECAUSE DR ALEXIS RESTORE JOY BACK TO ME BY BRINGING HIM BACK, AM GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE I NEVER TAUGHT I WILL EVER FEEL THE WARM TOUCH OF MY HUSBAND AGAIN, I PROMISED HIM THAT I WILL ALWAYS SINGS HIS PRAISES EVERYWHERE I GO AND TELL THE WHOLE WORLD OF HOW POWERFUL HE IS.... CONTACT HIM THROUGH THIS EMAIL FOR ALL THOSE OF YOU WHO WANTS TO BE HAPPY LIKE ME AGAIN.. DOCTOR.ALEXIS@YAHOO.COM

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  12. Your love spell has huge powers! I cant believe
    what's happening to me! It's been only 3 weeks
    since you did that spell and Vincent is already after
    me. Since the last week-end he phoned at least 5
    times. I believe he seems to realize his mistakes. It's
    absolutely happening as you said!! Thank you! Your
    work is helping me so much… Without you I would
    feel so lonely and miserable... Thank you!
    if you need help contact him via doctor.alexis@yahoo.com

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  13. I am basically writing you back to give you all of my thanks. Ever since I finished working on the first kit (Love Me Again), my results have been excellent. All I can say is YES, YES YES!! You have been a great help to me and very patient as well. That is so important. When people start working on things that are new to them, there is so much that they don't know. Especially since working on such kits you are calling on spirits for help and you don't want to make any mistakes because you're afraid that anything could go wrong if the work is not done right (such as myself) and I know that I have questioned you a lot. I can admit that I was having some doubts at first and that I was just hoping that this relationship could be helped due to all of the negativity in the relationship. Now I know that there was help and hope for us once again. You have been the best as far as love spell is concern and responding to questions in a timely manner. And I can also tell that you as the support staff are very bright and well educated people. I just wanted to leave you with this note. But mainly you. Even though I know that there are other spell caster, you have been the one that i have really seen a good result from the casting of the spell....thanks once again {Dr Royal}( Royallovespell@gmail.com )(Royallovespell@yahoo.com)or his website (http://Royallovespell.webs.com) or call him on +2349037171626,....

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  14. My name is Mrs betty moyes,I live in united state,and I’m happily married with my lovely husband and three children. I had a very big problem with my husband few months ago,to the extent that she even packed her things away from me and my kids for almost 5 months,and i tried all my possible best and effort to bring he back,but all to no avail.I discussed it with a very good friend of mine,and he gave me an advice concerning a spell caster,and i quote.“There’s someone who can handle your situation,he’s always ready and able to do anything related to spell casting,i will like you to contact him with his email,which is as follows.”Dr Royallovespell”. I never believed in spell casting,but he convinced me and i had no choice than to follow his advice,because i never dream t of loosing my lovely husband.And that’s how i contacted him with his email address,and i discussed with him and so surprisingly,he told me that I’ll get my husband back a day after.so i never believed,until when i got home,the next day,my husband called me to inform me that he was coming back…..So amazing!! That’s how i got my husband back through spell casting and our relationship was now stronger than how it was before.One of the price i was asked to pay was to tell it to people around me that problems like this,can always be solved by “Dr Royallovespell ”. So! my advice for you out there is to visit this same website (http://Royallovespell.webs.com),and tell him your problems too,if you are in any condition related to love issue or getting your ex back,to have a happy family.THANKS... Email him on( Royallovespell@gmail.com )(Royallovespell@yahoo.com) AS HIS POWERS ARE VERY EFFECTIVE AND HAS NO SIDE EFFECT INSTEAD IT HAVE A VERY GOOD RESULT AFTER CASTING THE SPELL.
    or call him on +2349037171626,.

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  15. HELLO EVERYBODY AM LIZZY FROM IRELAND I AM FULL OF JOY FOR WHAT DR AGBALAGBA DID FOR ME, I NEVER TAUGHT SPELL CASTING WAS REAL BECAUSE I HAVE CONTACTED ALOT OF SPELL CASTERS AND THEY ALL COLLECTED MY MONEY WITHOUT GIVING ME RESULT, SOMEBODY TOLD ME OF AGBALAGBA SO I GAVE IT A TRY, BEHOLD! I WAS SUPRISED OF EVERYTHING MY HUSBAND LEFT ME FOR 11YRS BUT AGBALAGBA TOLD ME NOT TO WORRY THAT HE WILL RETURN HIM BACK TO ME . TODAY AM THE MOST HAPPIEST WOMAN IN THE WORLD BECAUSE AGBALAGBA RESTORE JOY BACK TO ME BY BRINGING HIM BACK, AM GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING BECAUSE I NEVER TAUGHT I WILL EVER FEEL THE WARM TOUCH OF MY HUSBAND AGAIN, I PROMISED HIM THAT I WILL ALWAYS SINGS HIS PRAISES EVERYWHERE I GO AND TELL THE WHOLE WORLD OF HOW POWERFUL HE IS.... CONTACT HIM THROUGH THIS EMAIL FOR ALL THOSE OF YOU WHO WANTS TO BE HAPPY LIKE ME AGAIN.. AGBALAGBATEMPLE@YAHOO.COM

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  16. Hello to the people of this forum< Am Brooke Campbell from Texas and i can say that am the happiest person on earth since last week with what DR ABULU has done for me , it all started last year October when my fiance left me in Texas and travel to see his parents in Ohio at first him was still calling me and show love even when him was away , but it gets to a point when he no longer gives a shit about me , and i noticed it so when i tried to confront him , he told me that he dose not love me again that he feel like being alone i was shocked and heartbroken when i tried talking he will hang the phone on me i was so heart broken and i was frustrated about this , but on a second thought i was not convince that he was on his right senses so i discuss this with my elder sister who lives in California and she directed me to DR abulu of abuluspiritualtemple@yahoo.com saying that the man has helped her friend in such case before so i said to my self let me tried i contacted this man and explain everything to him and behold dr abulu said to me what am to do and i did exactly what he and he said after three days my fiance will call me and once he calls me i should pick the calls and he gave some other instructions . so i said okay , but to my best surprise on the 7th of November my fiancee called me and started saying on the phone am sorry it was like a dream to me , with this i said i will tell the world of his dr abulu goodness in my life , so if any one is out there and needs help in his or her relationship can also contact him today via

    email abuluspiritualtemple@yahoo.com
    web abuluspiritualtemple.webs.com

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  17. My name is LARISSA WATSON, i live and work in Oxfordshire, UK. My life is back After 2 years of Broken marriage, my husband left me with two kids, I felt like ending it all, i almost committed suicide because he left us with nothing, i was emotionally down all this while. Thanks to a spell caster called Dr.Okosisi spell cast which i met online. On one faithful day, as I was browsing through the internet, I came across several of testimonies about this particular spell caster. Some people testified that he brought their Ex lover back, some testified that he restores womb,cure cancer,and other sickness, some testified that he can cast a spell to stop divorce and also spell to get a good paid job so on. He is amazing, i also come across one particular testimony, it was about a woman called Vera, she testified about how he brought back her Ex lover in less than 2 days, and at the end of her testimony she dropped his email.After reading all these, I decided to give it a try. I contacted him via email and explained my problem to him. In just 48hours, my husband came back to me. We resolved our issues, and we are even happier than ever.Dr.Okosisi you are a gifted man and i will not stop publishing him because he is a wonderful man. If you have a problem and you are looking for a real and genuine spell caster, Try him anytime, he is the answer to your problems. you can contact him on his Email okosisilovespell@gmail.com/okosisilovespell@yahoo.com/okosisilovespell@hotmail.com Call him +2348178793286

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  18. If you desperately need an honest and real death spell caster who can help you cast a perfect death spell on anyone then contact this great death spell caster called Dr baluta. He saved my marriage when he helped me cast a death spell on the lady that almost took my husband completely away from me and the kids. just within 21hours after the casting the bitch died in her sleeping bed.You too can try this man also, balutaspelltemple@gmail.com

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  19. I'm CLIFFORD MARY by name I have a few testimony to share with you all about myself, I was in a relationship with this guy and for 3years and we were about getting married when we both have misunderstanding with each other and he ask me for a divorce and we both agreed and after 4months I head that he was having an affair with one of my closest friend and I was very upset and worried so a friend of my advice me and told me if I still love my ex and if I really want to have him back so I told her yes, and she ask me to contact Dr. ALLI the spell caster and I did although I never believe on spell so he gave me something when he was casting the spell and ask me to say my wishes on it and after the casting of the spell a receive a phone call from my ex and was ask me at which I did and now we are back together again I'm so happy and I wish not to ever have this mistake again in my life. I will also advice anyone with this kind of issue to contact him for help he is really nice on phone and always there to answer you question giving you the good advice that you need. his email is ALLISPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM or you call +2348149158514

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  20. My name is mabel jane!!! i am very grateful sharing this great testimonies with you, The best thing that has ever happened in my life is how i win the lottery. I am a woman who believe that one day i will win the lottery.finally my dreams came through when i email Dr Bhabumenre . and tell him i need the lottery numbers. i have come a long way spending money on ticket just to make sure i win. But i never know that winning was so easy until the day i meant the spell caster online which so many people has talked about that he is very great in casting lottery spell, so i decide to give it a try.I contacted this man and he did a spell and he gave me the winning lottery numbers. But believe me when the draws were out i was among winners, i win $2,000,000:00usd . Dr. Bhabumenre truly you are the best, with these man you can will millions of money through lottery. i am so very happy to meet these man, i will forever be grateful to you. Email him for your own winning lottery numbers drbhabumenrespellhome@gmail.com OR drbhabumenrespellhome@gmail.com or call him +2347038110398. Christina Terri from UK

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  21. My name is Christina Terri!!! i am very grateful sharing this great testimonies with you, The best thing that has ever happened in my life is how i win the lottery. I am a woman who believe that one day i will win the lottery.finally my dreams came through when i email Dr Osauyi. and tell him i need the lottery numbers. i have come a long way spending money on ticket just to make sure i win. But i never know that winning was so easy until the day i meant the spell caster online which so many people has talked about that he is very great in casting lottery spell, so i decide to give it a try.I contacted this man and he did a spell and he gave me the winning lottery numbers. But believe me when the draws were out i was among winners. i win 1.900.000 million Dollar. Dr. Osauyi truly you are the best, with these man you can will millions of money through lottery. i am so very happy to meet these man, i will forever be grateful to you. Email him for your own winning lottery numbers (Osauyilovespell@gmail.com) or call him +2347064293495. Christina Terri from U.S.A web site http://osauyilovespelll.webs.com/

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  22. My name is Christina Terri!!! i am very grateful sharing this great testimonies with you, The best thing that has ever happened in my life is how i win the lottery. I am a woman who believe that one day i will win the lottery.finally my dreams came through when i email Dr Osauyi. and tell him i need the lottery numbers. i have come a long way spending money on ticket just to make sure i win. But i never know that winning was so easy until the day i meant the spell caster online which so many people has talked about that he is very great in casting lottery spell, so i decide to give it a try.I contacted this man and he did a spell and he gave me the winning lottery numbers. But believe me when the draws were out i was among winners. i win 1.900.000 million Dollar. Dr. Osauyi truly you are the best, with these man you can will millions of money through lottery. i am so very happy to meet these man, i will forever be grateful to you. Email him for your own winning lottery numbers (Osauyilovespell@gmail.com) or call him +2347064293495. Christina Terri from U.S.A web site http://osauyilovespelll.webs.com/...

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  23. what are your problems? do you have trouble, problems in your marriage?

    do you have fight with your ex? are you in trouble of debt? are you lust

    what are those things killing your happiness, making you so unhappy? you

    don't have to worry no more because we have got a quick way in solving

    problems.

    ATTENTIONS

    i am Jovian Hysong from usa

    readers please beware that fake spell caster are everywhere looking for

    whom to scam i was scammed 4 good times with different ones, i almost

    gave up to the ghost because i was in trouble of debt and also my

    husband was about to leave me and my children before i met aluda.

    aluda

    IS A PROPHET who also believe in jai mata durga. goddess of india

    mom of the world. here is his email aludaspelltemple@gmail.com, i contacted him

    when i was in so much pains and sorrow among all he was the only

    person who genuinely helped restore my home also payed my debt.

    feel safe and happy only with aluda anything you need shall be

    given unto your desires,thanks to you master, father of the world

    praise be to you. GOD BLESS AMERICA.
    aludaspelltemple@gmail.com

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  24. I'm CLIFFORD MARY by name I have a few testimony to share with you all about myself, I was in a relationship with this guy and for 3years and we were about getting married when we both have misunderstanding with each other and he ask me for a divorce and we both agreed and after 4months I head that he was having an affair with one of my closest friend and I was very upset and worried so a friend of my advice me and told me if I still love my ex and if I really want to have him back so I told her yes, and she ask me to contact Dr. ALLI the spell caster and I did although I never believe on spell so he gave me something when he was casting the spell and ask me to say my wishes on it and after the casting of the spell a receive a phone call from my ex and was ask me at which I did and now we are back together again I'm so happy and I wish not to ever have this mistake again in my life. I will also advice anyone with this kind of issue to contact him for help he is really nice on phone and always there to answer you question giving you the good advice that you need. his email is ALLISPELLHELP@GMAIL.COM or you call +2348149158514

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  25. LOTTO SPELLS & MONEY SPELLS CONTACT DR Bhabumenre with his email: drbhabumenrespellhome@gmail.com or CALL +2347038110398 Hello my name is Mabel jane i am here to testify on how Dr Bhabumenre help me wine on Lottery Spell-Are you looking for a jackpot win on either a scratch off ticket or the little lottery contact Dr Bhabumenre today all your pains will be over okay Dr Bhabumenre is here to help you out okay? This spell can be directed at either type of lottery game in your area to produce a onetime jackpot win. When you do not have the financial freedom to do as you wish life can take a toll on you and your family. Money spell can help increase finance in many ways. We can help with business spells, lottery spells, getting people to pay you back and gambling spells. Better Odds Gambling Spell - Do you go to the casinos and gamble frequently?This spell will increase the odds of your natural win when you go to gamble. You will see larger, more frequent wins. Prosperity Spell - Are you looking for an increased income? This spell will help you in all aspects of your life financially. Whether it be getting a salary increase, better luck gambling or more business coming your way, this spell will help get it done right the first time. For more Info Call DR drbhabumenrespellhome@gmail.com
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  26. Am Heather Jason from USA i want to share my great experience to the whole world about how i got my lover back to my arms after we departed for 4 years i never taught that i could have him back in my life until i met this great man named Dr Marvel who showed me true powers of spell, Me and my lover Broke up 4 years ago ever since i have not been my self although i have been in several relationship i have not seen who is as good as Jason, so ever since i have been thinking about him, so i had to tell my friend about how i feel for Jason that i wish if i can have him back to my arms, so that was when my friend told me that she was reading a love review on the internet when she saw how somebody commented on how she got her lover back with the help of a spell caster, A man named Dr Marvel. So that was how i told her to show me the site were she read the reviews so that was how she showed me and i saw so many reviews about this great man how he helped a lot of people without wasting any time. Immediately i collected his contact and called him and told him what i want, he just laughed over it and told me not to worry that he will come back to me, so that was how i waited to see what will happen, so surprisingly i got a call from Jason. i was like this is a dream, but later realized that it was reality, Jason was crying and pleading on the phone that he missed me a lot that i should come back to his life, i was like is this real? until he came to my house and went on his knees pleading to me that i should forgive him, so that was how we got united again with the help of Dr Marvel, and now we are happily married, thanks be unto Dr Marvel for what he has done for me, if you need his help you can contact him through his website http://extremespellhome.webs.com or via email extremespellhome1@gmail.com or extremespellhome@hotmail.com or call his telephone number +1 559 898 2962.

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  27. Am Heather Jason from USA i want to share my great experience to the whole world about how i got my lover back to my arms after we departed for 4 years i never taught that i could have him back in my life until i met this great man named Dr Marvel who showed me true powers of spell, Me and my lover Broke up 4 years ago ever since i have not been my self although i have been in several relationship i have not seen who is as good as Jason, so ever since i have been thinking about him, so i had to tell my friend about how i feel for Jason that i wish if i can have him back to my arms, so that was when my friend told me that she was reading a love review on the internet when she saw how somebody commented on how she got her lover back with the help of a spell caster, A man named Dr Marvel. So that was how i told her to show me the site were she read the reviews so that was how she showed me and i saw so many reviews about this great man how he helped a lot of people without wasting any time. Immediately i collected his contact and called him and told him what i want, he just laughed over it and told me not to worry that he will come back to me, so that was how i waited to see what will happen, so surprisingly i got a call from Jason. i was like this is a dream, but later realized that it was reality, Jason was crying and pleading on the phone that he missed me a lot that i should come back to his life, i was like is this real? until he came to my house and went on his knees pleading to me that i should forgive him, so that was how we got united again with the help of Dr Marvel, and now we are happily married, thanks be unto Dr Marvel for what he has done for me, if you need his help you can contact him through his website http://extremespellhome.webs.com or via email extremespellhome1@gmail.com or extremespellhome@hotmail.com or call his telephone number +1 559 898 2962.

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  28. Hello,i am From USA. I wish to share my testimonies with the general public about what this man called DR VOKE from Africa has just done for me , this man has just brought back my lost Ex wife to me with his great spell, I was married to this woman called Lisa we were together for a long time and we loved our self’s but when she was unable to give me a child for 2 years she left me and told me she can’t continue anymore then I was now looking for ways to get her back until a friend of mine told me about this man and gave his contact email to me (DOCTORVOKE@GMAIL.COM)
    then you won’t believe this, when I contacted this man on my problems he prepared this spell cast. and bring my lost wife back, and after a month she miss her monthly period and she went for a test and the result stated she was pregnant. am happy today am a father of a baby boy, thank you once again the great DR VOKE for what you have done for me, if you are out there passing through any of this problems listed below: you can contact him via Email; (DOCTORVOKE@GMAIL.COM)
    (1) If you want your divorced husband/wife back.
    (2)If you want your ex boyfriend/girlfriend back
    (3) If you always have bad dreams.
    (4) You want to be promoted in your office.
    (5) You want women/men to run after you.
    (6) If you want a child.
    (7) You want to be rich.
    (8) You want to tie your husband/wife to be yours forever.
    (9) Or you have been scammed and you want to recover your lost money
    (10) If you are in love with someone and you want him/her to fall in love with you totally.
    (12) If you want a Tame my Lover Spell
    (13) If you want a Make Me Sexy Spell
    (14) If you want a STOP His Roving Eyes Spell
    (15) If you want a Rejuvenated Love Spell
    (16) If you want a Be Faithful To Me Spell
    (17) If you want to prevent or keep others from talking about my man
    (18) Remove bad spells from homes, business & customer attraction etc.
    (19) Stop your marriage or relationship from breaking apart.
    (20) Read all your problems before you even mention them to him
    (21) Remove the black spot that keeps on taking your money away
    (22)Find out why you are not progressing in life and the solution
    (23) Eliminate in family fights
    (24) Ensure excellent school grades even for children with mental disabilities
    (25) Get promotion you have desired for a long time at work or in your career.
    (26) I destroy and can send back the Nicolas if requested
    (27) We heal barrenness in women and disturbing menstruation
    (28) Get you marriage to the lover of your choice
    (29) Guarantee you win the troubling court cases
    (30)Get the spell to win a lottery.
    Write DR VOKE on (DOCTORVOKE@GMAIL.COM) i can not stop testifying of his good work and i believe that a trial will convince you also

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  29. My name is Diana I am from United States, I was I a relationship with Ben and we

    loved and cherished ourselves for 3 good years and every thing was going on

    smoothly but February 14, 2015 a day I can call a lovers day we both had

    misunderstanding because I answered a call from a guy that is asking me out for a

    date but I refused, and he told me that the relationship is over and that he is

    fed up with me and I begged him because I love him so much but he refused me I

    was so down cast and I felt the world has come to an end for me but my friend

    told me about a spell caster that helped her sister out in getting her

    relationship back, a good job and favor in any of her endeavor but at first I was

    scared but I have to give this man a trial because I love Ben very much and I am

    not willing to loose him to any woman, so I ordered returning my love spell from

    this great spell caster that made me a happy woman again to say it all my ex came

    back to me with much love and a caring heart...i am testifying to this great

    spell caster ABUBAKAR SHRINE. if you need his help you can contact him on

    drabubakarlovespellgmail.com

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  30. HELLO

    my name is Karen Gary from USA, i want to testify to the general public how my relationship was restored back by the great power's of Dr Marvel after three months of loneliness, my ex-lover called me after my contact with Dr Marvel that he want us to come back and start a good home, now we are happily married. All thanks to Dr Marvel for his wonderful spiritual help. You can contact him on his website http://extremespellhome.webs.com or via email extremespellhome1@gmail.com or extremespellhome@hotmail.com or call his telephone number +1559 898 2962 if you have similar problem, or any solution you may need.
    Good Luck.

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  31. HELLO

    my name is Karen Gary from USA, i want to testify to the general public how my relationship was restored back by the great power's of Dr Marvel after three months of loneliness, my ex-lover called me after my contact with Dr Marvel that he want us to come back and start a good home, now we are happily married. All thanks to Dr Marvel for his wonderful spiritual help. You can contact him on his website http://extremespellhome.webs.com or via email extremespellhome1@gmail.com or extremespellhome@hotmail.com or call his telephone number +1559 898 2962 if you have similar problem, or any solution you may need.
    Good Luck.

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  32. Hello friends My name is Sarah savage! I am very happy for sharing this great testimonies with you, The best thing that has ever happened in my life is how I win the lottery mega jackpot. I am a woman who believe that one day I will win the lottery. finally my dreams came through when I email Dr friday. and tell him I need the lottery numbers. I have come a long way spending money on ticket just to make sure I win. But I never know that winning was so easy until the day I meant the spell caster online which so many people has talked about that he is very great in casting lottery spell, so i told my husband about it and he agreed. so I decide to give it a try.I contacted this great Dr and he did a spell and he gave me the winning lottery numbers. But believe me when the draws were out I was among winners. I win 1.900.000 million Dollar. Dr. friday truly you are the best, with these great Dr you can win millions of money through lottery. I am so very happy to meet these man, I will forever be grateful to you. Email him for your own winning lottery numbers drfridayspelltemple@gmail.com or call him +2348109811855. Sarah savage from (U.S.A ) united state of America thanks for reading.

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  33. 'm Sarah Alison by name I have a few testimony to share with you all about myself, I was in a relationship with this guy and for 3years and we were about getting married when we both have misunderstanding with each other and he ask me for a divorce and we both agreed and after 4months I head that he was having an affair with one of my closest friend and I was very upset and worried so a friend of my advice me and told me if I still love my ex back and if I really want to have him back so i told her yes, and she ask me to contact Dr. OKOSISI the spell caster and I did although I never believe on spell so he gave me something when he was casting the spell and ask me to say my wishes on it and after the casting of the spell a receive a phone call from my ex and was ask me at which i did and now we are back together again I'm so happy and I wish not to ever have this mistake again in my life. I will also advice anyone with this kind of issue to contact him for help he is really nice on phone and always there to answer you question giving you the good advice that you need. his email is okosisilovespell@gmail.com or okosisilovespell@yahoo.com/okosisilovespell@hotmail.com or you call +2348143261945

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